“Now is later forever” – Giannina Haupt, 19.04.2019

The love of my life, who will remain my love forever, my heart, has passed away. My husband Carl Jakob Haupt fell asleep peacefully in my arms on Good Friday. He left exactly the way he had wished to, after weeks of fighting cancer. He was with me during this last moment, together with our love. The time we both lived was so intense, no words could ever describe it. We lived every day as if it was our last. We’ve lived a life that was created by us, nothing else mattered. We have experienced unconditional love. Even if Jakob only turned 34 years old, he left so many traces, had a great family, made so many unbelievably good friends, so that he will continue to live inside all of us. He was our leader. I know that he has delighted so many people with his indescribable smile, his energy and his smartness.

Despite the illness, Jakob never complained. He looked at the beauty in life, was fearless and always enjoyed everything to the fullest. Jakob was not influenced by anything or anyone, always formed his own opinion and was open to everyone, regardless of their backgrounds.

Jakob is always with me and us. He’s looking at us from somewhere else, watching over me, smiling because he knows we’ll never forget him. “You’re the first I think of when I wake up in the morning – and the last I think of when I fall asleep. And this is since we know each other. Every day. And that’s also how it will be now, when I go to I fall asleep for the last time “. (Jakob to me, April 2019)

Our love remains.
Now is later forever.